I met a gay, and I find him so smart and intelligent and okay he is cute.... when you first look at him you will not think that he is a gay... as for my experience he catched my attention the way he carry himself and the way he dressed... but later on he said "actually I am not even straight... and I cannot be attracted to anyone because I am presently committed with someone who is the same sex..........toinks!!! wek-wek-wek-wek... uhum that is correct.... and I said to myself "langya sayang lahi nito"... from that day forward I find it weird liking a gay person... it was my first time to like a gay to be my close friend... the sad part there was he is my boss and I am not allowed to... which means impossible... Anyway, I just want to write this one just to ease the negative energy out of my body... Ann left a message on my facebook telling me that she was so upset to her suitor being so judgemental= negative, Maja texted me and commented on my friendster that she was so upset being in London alone and she wants to go home, again = negative, Amy, called and emailed me she was so upset with her husband not being so supportive with her plans and she also whats to go home= negative... all my colleage now are so upset with the policies... I honestly dont know where to get a possitive energy anymore... my chances of getting the job done is getting slimmer... why the people around me are so negative? their energy is pulling me down... I cant talk to anyone that will make me feel lighter...that make me feel everything will going to be okay... make it or break it they are still there for me... I know they will be there but what I need right now is someone who can lift up my morale... my boat is sinking... by writing it down here I know it will somehow lessen the burden... some people might find it non sense but they really do not have the idea how i am feeling now.... it's not sadness nor loneliness... it was losing my positive energy to negative one.... I wanted to tell my mom, can I just sleep for a year? or can I just sleep for the rest of my days? can I just migrate on another planet that nobody was there? can I just scream???? waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
Saturday, May 9, 2009
inHeil-exHeil
I met a gay, and I find him so smart and intelligent and okay he is cute.... when you first look at him you will not think that he is a gay... as for my experience he catched my attention the way he carry himself and the way he dressed... but later on he said "actually I am not even straight... and I cannot be attracted to anyone because I am presently committed with someone who is the same sex..........toinks!!! wek-wek-wek-wek... uhum that is correct.... and I said to myself "langya sayang lahi nito"... from that day forward I find it weird liking a gay person... it was my first time to like a gay to be my close friend... the sad part there was he is my boss and I am not allowed to... which means impossible... Anyway, I just want to write this one just to ease the negative energy out of my body... Ann left a message on my facebook telling me that she was so upset to her suitor being so judgemental= negative, Maja texted me and commented on my friendster that she was so upset being in London alone and she wants to go home, again = negative, Amy, called and emailed me she was so upset with her husband not being so supportive with her plans and she also whats to go home= negative... all my colleage now are so upset with the policies... I honestly dont know where to get a possitive energy anymore... my chances of getting the job done is getting slimmer... why the people around me are so negative? their energy is pulling me down... I cant talk to anyone that will make me feel lighter...that make me feel everything will going to be okay... make it or break it they are still there for me... I know they will be there but what I need right now is someone who can lift up my morale... my boat is sinking... by writing it down here I know it will somehow lessen the burden... some people might find it non sense but they really do not have the idea how i am feeling now.... it's not sadness nor loneliness... it was losing my positive energy to negative one.... I wanted to tell my mom, can I just sleep for a year? or can I just sleep for the rest of my days? can I just migrate on another planet that nobody was there? can I just scream???? waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
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