Clear Water

Sabi da open communication will help you understand and will make things clearer. True:). Just today the situation or should I say your mood swing for the past few days kasing claru na ne ning damu. Yep, mas antindyan kuna ngeni... mas payapa naku utak ngeni... pero syempre medyu malungkut kasi sabi ku keka diba keka ku kukwang lakas king aldo aldo kasi deng aliwa kung friends medyu busy nala. Pero makanta man antindyan daka. And as I promise you, gawan ku para keka... pero sana okay mung text daka if atin kung buring kwento ne but don't worry ali ku magexpect reactions. Sana ali naman din bawal ing mangutang keka, lalu na if vocabulary words. Maging boring man ing pamaglibut ku kasi ala kung saling pasalubung, maging boring man kasi ala kung paggawan kareng gimik kung surprises, maging boring man kasi ala kung panayan muli neng abak a maranun, maging boring man kasi ala kung kasabe malbe balitanghali, maging boring man kasi ala kung katext abak-ugtu-bengi, at higit sa lahat maging boring man kasi ala kung pag-alayang lugud, pilitan kung maging masaya at masigla para keka. Ini talaga ing penintun ku kareng milabas a aldo, itang metung kung kaibigan... aliwa itang sex on text or sex on phone. Itang metung a kaibigan na eku apagpalit kahit minsan sobra ya ka moody. Itang metung a masating a lalaki lalu na pag bayu yang gupit. hehehe (btw nakang kapogi nandin after mung megupitan hair ali bola yan ah) ... Madagul adjustment pero kakayanin ko para keka. Basta promise mu kaku na eka mangalingwan ah. At if ever at anytime at any situation kailanganan mu ing saup ku, ATIU KU mu lagi keni para keka... Nung nanu ka kaku ngeni at kanita, makanyan ka parin keng pusu ku gang maging aliwa ing sitwasyun. Hangad kumu dear ing kaligayaan mu gang aliwa aku ing buring mung kayabe ketang kaligayaan ayta. Ali drama ini, tatanggapan ku mu at maging positive ku keng sitwasyun. Siguradu ating rason ini ot makanini... metung yang way ini para a pakit ku keka na tune ing lugud ku. Maniwala ku na ing lugud ali ya maymut, aliya matas a puluk... aliya mu kabud feeling... metung yang behavior para ketang taung kaluguran mu. Sabi da pin, its how a person treat you in every situation for all of your life...

PS: Salamat at kelwalan ka nandin, gang malabat sobra... 2 1/2 na pala ing milabas... masaya ku parin kasi ikit ku... failed naku naman keng oral pero salamat at antindyan mu. At saka pala sana aburi mula retang yellow things ku for you... gang simply lamu rugu.

Aku...

Sabi da ing bie ning metung a tau antiyang Bangka king metung a dagat malat nung okarin baluna nung okarin ya papunta, kasu enabalu nanu ngan ing manayang kasakitan king kayang pamaglakbe, Atin yang makanyan ing biye na ning metung a taung kalupa ku... Balu ku nanu ing buri ku at pangarap ku para miras ku king dapat kung puntalan, pero eku asabi nung nanu ing karasan ku kabang mag lakbe ku at maki pag brusu kareng egana ganang kapag subukan... Asabi ku neng minsan masaya, atin lungkut at kasakitan... Pero para kanaku ali importanti nanu man ing pegdalanan ku, Ing importanti mebyasa ku makananu kung mekilaban king nanu man a kapag subukan a tikman ku kabang mag lakbe ku. Kareng milabas a aldo dakal ku aisip pero ing a tutunan ku ing eka mamasa nanu man king biye, Balu ku at balu mu.. datang murin ing pagkakataun na para kaku..ing bage na pangadi ku at itang pangarapan ku... ing importanti masaya ku habang ating pagkakataun... para ing biye ku maging makule... lumawe ku kareng masating a mangyari aliwa kareng bage na ali ku buri... makuyad ya ing biye... dapat mas dakal ing masaya kesa keng malungkut...

Patawad kareng mali ku... patawad kareng pagkukulang ku... ing lugud ku ali magbayu... gang pilan pang banwa ing lumabas... pero maging responsabli naku kareng aksyon a gagawan ku...

Missing: PRINCE TROY

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me. Whatever you are going through now... you can always count on me... we are friends after all... diba? what I had with you, ala naku sigurung ali agyung tanggapan... kaya sana mibalik naka mood my dear... mas cute kang atiu keng mood... mas masaya... mas makulay... the prince i met with great qualities.:)

as for me, I am doing fine:)... I spend most of my time reading... tv... saka i whisper in the air for you... hehehe... itang buri kung text most of the time sasabian ku keng langit... saka ako humihiling sa langit ng isang himala... aliya pin pa sasagut pero im patiently waiting... I have faith... ingat ka lagi keng pamagdrive pagpalub and paulit, exercise ka, eat enough, sleep well, and drink alot of pineapple juice... hehehe joke...sige tulog nako... 12am na..

Okay

Break... Sure... take all the time you want... pero ing tutu na niyan migaganaka ku kc last time mung sinabi yan binilang kung weeks or months bayu ka mekisabi ulit... isawan ku na sanang mangyari pa ini pero ika parin naman ing sundan ku... respect ku parin naman buri mu. Peka pagpray ku namu sana e lalambat... ali SANA ngening panahun ayni na ala kung aliwang apagkuhanan lakas nung aliwa ika. Balu mu naman diba jobless ku and still searching, advice mula reng magpalakas lub kaku. Pero makanyan man mas buri kung gawan mu nanung makapagpasaya keka... I won't mind dear, I'll be fine... i will just be around waiting for you to comeback...

Sore

Im sorry I am not able to text you that much, masakit ya daliri ku. Tsaka yapa minataki mood swing ku. 

But I am ok. Just want some quiet time for myself on my off. Sana you won't mind me taking some break. Movie marathon ku napun. Tapus TV tsaka sleep. Mesakit kupin ata katawan keng sobra tudtud! Kaya need to stretch and exercise/

Anyway its work week again. 

Run to you

I singing this song...

"I know that when you look at me. There’s so much that you just don’t see but if you would only take the time I know in my heart you’d find a girl who’s scared sometimes who isn’t always strong. Can’t you see the hurt in me? I feel so all-alone. I want to run to you; won’t you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm? If I come to you, tell me, will you stay or will you run away. Each day, I play the role of someone always in control but at night I come home and turn the key there’s nobody there, no one cares for me. What’s the sense of trying hard to find your dreams without someone to share it with tell me what does it mean? I need you here to wipe away my tears and to kiss away my fears If you only knew how much… "

gusto kong mabuhay ng simply lang, simple ngunit may kulay, may pagmamahal, respeto, tiwala, pagpapakumbaba, pangunawa, katuwaan, pagkakaibigan at konting kahirapan... balang araw sana mabuhay tayo ng ganyan lang... ganyan lang kasimple...

PS:
penaya daka buong aldo... at panayan daka pa at panayan daka parin...

Long day

Long day I must say, birthday nitang pamangkin ku ngeni and minta kami. Close family tsaka barkada ng mother nitang magcelebrate dend atchu. Masaya naman. Thinking of it, 20k is ok narin for a birthday keng Mcdo. Less hassle basta munta nakamu tsaka magbirthday hehehe. I think good for 80 person ne ta. Ala mang 80 ata kareng dintang, well less detang mangalating anak. But overall, nice celebration :)

After the birthday, minta kaming mader keng mall. Seli keng phone. Machura ne kasi phone na tsaka malabu ne backlight uling tang plastic screen na sapak neng gasgas. Almost my sweldo for the half of the month pero ok mu. Malambat kune rin balak sali din e. Tang cellphone na binye nepang dara ku before.

Kauli as usual magsabi-sabi ne nanaman tatang ku. Always on the negative side of the story. Gagana ya pa kanu tang luma ng cell maku. Naku enaku binulad at inayus kune mu PC ku. Tear down ke to the mobo ing gewa ku. Inayus ke tang fan ning CPU. Buti namu ngeni medyu stable ne ing temperature na. Maglinis ku ring files, buburn kunala para adelete kunala.


Xet ini na ing aisip ku pane ngeni. Work, outside, at home. Hay. This position is one that you sent na buri mung gawan. Safe ka as you said and I believe in it. I know emuku pahamak especially keng situation ku ngeni. Looking forward for next week. Keng bonding moment ta. Bond literally hehehe. Gawan ku ngan buri ning puki mu basta balu ning butu ku na safe ka...

Para keka..

Manibat nanding kagising ku, I feel like im annoyed... eku balu bakit eku balu king nanu at kung kaninu... in short alang dahilan... tapus megtxt ka at bigla kung ayalala na manibat aniang wednesday mabayat nala reng boobs ku. kaibat nandin ing punsun ku daramdaman ku ne rin mabayat. ngeni ku pa aisip wapin pala atiu naku keng safe zone... ing period na daramdaman kuna mag period naku ing after 10 days. Ali ku a panaya ing ing 28, sobrang excited naku... kinwa keng cellphone ku at linawe ke tang bed ta king baguio.. at sinabi ku keng sarili ku "grabe a miss ku ing moments ta karin" . Ng kasanting reminisce ing panahun ayta. sabi mu pin ala katang isipan aliwa nung ali, manga, matud, lumibut at sex. It was the best getaway I ever had. Itang effort ku priceless ing kapalit which was the smile in your face...it was so priceless my dear. Your dance was so amazing, it was something na ikang ginawa kanta for me. Ikit mu naman mengapakyak ku... sige na call me OA, call me mababaw kaligayaan, pero I was really touch with that act. Siguro dahil kaluguran daka at balamu dream come true kaku na gawan mu ita for me. Oyni pin susulat ku mangapaluha naku naman... Feeling ku kc in my whole life alang gawang makanta for me, yeah my passed treated me like a princess, but they failed to see that I am just a simple girl na simpling buhay mu ing pangarap. Before kala ku ing lugud feeling yamu, na feeling masaya ka pag kayabe me, kasabi me, akakit me. Pero ngeni ku pa aisip ing lugud aliya mu kabud feeling. Instead Love is best seen as devotion and action, not an emotion. Love is not exclusively based on how we feel. Certainly our emotions are involved, but they cannot be our only criteria for love. True devotion will always lead to action—true love. Atin pala talagang datang a tau king bie mu na gang makananu ya kaordinary king mata da reng aliwa, keka aliya, keka metung yang gintung kikinang everytime na mislagan yang aldo. Gana ganang bage kaya masating o ali agyu mung tanggapan. Ing papakit ku keka ali manayang kapalit kapilan man... masaya ku nung datang ing time na panayan ku at pangarap ku... basta maniwala ku na TRUE LOVE waits.... remember that... at balang aldo sabian mu kaku.. tutu pala ing sasabian mu amo...

Coming up!

Katext daka ngeni at sabi mu magcrave kang burger steak. So here it is dear! heheheh. Drawing napa ne pag mikit kata akung magserve keka kanyan :)

Day off mode naku! Buti namu last day na ngeni. Bukas makipagbirthday kami Mcdo ketang pangunakan ku. Tapus managkat ya i mader keng SM.

Xet one week namu! Yahoo! hahahha. Everyday namu aisip ko detang text mu. Agyang gematan kune e parin mawala ing pali ning katawan ku. Hay mibugnus kanyan ni pag mikit kata. Safe. Safe. Safe...

Ing PC ku magkatemperature issue ya talaga. Nilawe ke nandin tang fan ning CPU na loose ya. This off kune mu kalikutan. Megsystem restore naku same parin. Pag e megaling kanini magOSRI kung e oras. Buti namu ok ya ing connection ku. Makapagupdate ku agad.

Ing busit a MMS naman e parin bisa. Later break ku mawus ku ulit pagpaSup naku! hehehe. Sayang ya ining picture atchu keng cellphone ku eme akit agad. HOT ya pamo!

One mochachinno, coming up! Coffee, lots of cream, a little bit sugar and some Milo. Aku danum mapali mu chaka metung bag ning Lipton. Maka 3 cups naku kanita piulit-ulit kemu hehehe.

i love you

Just want to say: Kaluguran daka nung nanu ka at ninu ika.... goodnight....

missed call, missed you

Around 5:38 na ning afternoon, biglang minuran. Ali malakas pero ali murin ambun. Aniang dimdam ku ita ika minuna linub keng utak ku. Wer naka kaya, pota mabasa ka. Tnxt daka at panayang sagut kasu bigla nakung inutus mako keng luwal para saling banana. Kabalik ku atin kang missed call. Hay.....!!!, 45 minutes dakang panayan tapus a miss kemu call mu.... sorry dear... guilty ku. promise bawi ku keng susunud....

Exactly 15 days now since last time dakang ikit... A miss ke ing masanting mung lupa... ing gagawan ku pibalik balik kula reng picture mu, keng cell ku at pc.... habang lalawen daka kareng picture, ating kung background music.... here are the songs:

You and Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

The Earth, the Sun, the Rain
When I was lost
I could not see
All the beauty and wonder
There'd been around me
I was alone
Dreaming of you
Oh I could not imagine
This dream coming true

So much joy now
And all that you touched
You make me feel
Everything's so much

Chorus:
I will love you for the
earth at my feet
I will love you for
the sun in the sky
I will love you for
the falling rain,
I will love you for
the heart that could
break,
I will love you for the
dreams that we share,
I will love you for
the falling rain.

Facing the wind,
Tears from my eyes,
Baby where have you been,
When I was hoping,
Was waiting for you,
To pull back the door,
To take me by the hand,
And lead me through.

This whole world was,
A stranger to me,
Now you have opened,
My heart to everything.

Speed of light

Thanks God miras ku site na malangi! Halus 5:30 naku meko kekami. Inayus kepa PC ku tapus magexercise in between ot bigla namung melulam. Pendalas kung magmanehu hehehe. Karas ku kilub site mabasa ing dalan evident ing masikang urang binagsak.

Akalingwan kupang mendalang panyu. Magtissue nakumu kanini.

Kadatang ku site mga past 6 na. Kayari kung megCR awsan daka kaya lang eme sagutan. Chu kumu canteen. Uling mekapilan nakung ring eme sagutan, megblog nakumu kareng PC keni.

Unable to reach you

I tried calling you today after I arrived from work pero you are not answering your phone. I tried like four times pero still no answer.

Anyways, nandin tinry keng iniscan PC ku pero ala kung akit virus or spyware. Tapus gewa ku megselective start up ku. Atin kung dinisable adwang program na suspicious uyta meayus ne. Keng off kunala ayusan deta. Ngeni stable ne PC ku. Makapagporn naku este makapagdownload naku.

By the way, please refrain from copy and pasting articles. You can site or quote some pero ali mula ngan copy. Tapus when choosing pictures, choose detang alang copyright like detang kalupa nitang condom. Detang ating watermark, iwasan mo deta.

Uyta, mengan ne kanu Patty penayan ke pamo. Mangan kupa. Eku magreply keng text mu kasi bigla kung megmood swing. Wait danaka chat later..

Miracle of Friendship

The Miracle of Friendship. There's a "Miracle called FRIENDSHIP" That dwells within the HEART and you don't know how It happens or when it gets its start... But the happiness it brings you Always gives a special LIFT, and you realize that FRIENDSHIP... Is GOD'S most precious GIFT!

Masaya ku at we are friends no matter what...melungkut ku last night when you told me I was asking too much... I am sorry my dear it wasn't meant that way. Masaya kung masaya aniang sinabi mula deta... KISS HUG LOVE When I ask you how about bukas...ing LOVE pinili keng interpret as LOVE for a best friend kasi ita itamu diba... We are close friends... Aminan ku kaluguran daka more than friend but it does not mean I will ask you to do the same. When I realize that I have fallen for you after knowing your situation balu ku na keng pusu ku na atin kang bage na ali a bie kaku... aku na ing pinaka masaya, pinaka swerti at pinaka proud nung datang ing time ibie mu ita kaku, pero nung ali... tanggapan ku naman makanta talaga ing life...ating para keka ating ali para keka... pero ali ibig sabian na nita I will love you LESS... masaya ku keng friendship ta ngeni... we are getting to know each other, our weakness, our strength our passion, our views, our dreams... nanu man mangyari keng hinaharap only time will tell and only God knows... Troy, lets celebrate life for what we are right now... the miracle of FRIENDSHIP

btw, sensya na last night eku balu if mad ka or inis ka... wait danaka mu...

Hakuna Matata

Worry is negative visualization. That's what authors Michael Gelb and Tony Buzan point out in Lessons from the Art of Juggling.

It's true: Worry is a focus on fear, which leads to tension, anxiety, anger, and exhaustion.

Here are ten tips to help you stop worrying:

• A positive attitude works wonders and prevents us from falling into the dark pit of worry and obsession. Stay focused on what's going right in your life.

• Dale Carnegie offers some classic advice in How to Stop Worrying and Start Living. First, identify the worst-case scenario. Accept it. Then, set out to improve upon it. Meanwhile, ask yourself, "Just how likely is this worst-case scenario?"

• Recording your worries in written form can help you channel nervous energy and pinpoint the real subject of your anxiety. Then you can work to solve those problems rationally and objectively.

• Mike Brescia has a good one for dissolving worry and anxiety here. This audiotape is not self-hypnotizing or subliminal. You'll hear every message, but these messages are subtle and, for many people, effective.

• And your hard-earned energy to obsess over the little things in life, nor about issues, events, and people over which you have no control. Repeat this fact to yourself, over and over if necessary.

• It's important to plan well, and to prepare for the future. A daily checklist can help you break up larger tasks into more realistic nuggets. After you make your daily to-do list, concern yourself only with the issues at hand. Focus on making the most of the present moment.

• Each time you find yourself worrying about some future event, remind yourself that you are capable of handling the problem when it arises. Develop a sense of trust in yourself to handle anything that comes your way. The best way to develop this trust is to charge your "confidence battery." Reflect on all of your successes...the times you succeeded in something on the fly. Spend less time worrying about what could happen with thoughts of what did happen-and how well you handled it.

• A support system is vital, but resist the temptation to exaggerate things when talking to your friends. Remind yourself that the level of stress you experience is directly related to the way you internalize it.

• George Bernard Shaw said, "The secret of being miserable is to have the leisure to bother about whether you are happy or not." If you're obsessing over something you know is silly, distract yourself. Start a new project. Take the kids out for ice cream. Call your mom.

• Your religious faith can go a long way in breaking the worry habit by helping you give those anxieties to a force greater than yourself.

It's important to recognize that everyone struggles with worry at some point. Talk with your friends and family about possible new ways you could handle these jittery sitations.

I know its something I need to work on... kaya lets sing this song:

Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!

cancelled!

I waited for you today, I went home early kasi sabi mu mag date kata online... I tried to reach you via txt, call and IM but ali ka makibat... ing last txt mu kaku 12:39PM yapa... 10:30 PM na I have not heard from you... sirugu something came out kaya eka makibat, I texted you, and tried to call you 3 times pero ali me sasagutan, maka online ka pero ali ka mag reply... Siguru ating kang gagawan or matud kapa... anyway ayus mung e mituluy ing date ta online... Sana ok kamu...
By the way, I want to thank you for appreciating the things I sent today, and I am sorry if meg cause lang issue. I guess I acted OA again today for sending you flowers and Bear.... I was so insensitive that I did not consider the possible consequences of my actions... I know it did made you smile... Eka mag alala ayus mu kaku at antidyan ku namang ing situation. I promise that would be the last... Sensya na talaga.... Good Night My Prince... Happy Valentines:)

V-day:)

Valentines, is not just for lovers... it is also for someone that is special in your heart. Happy Valentines day:) I am so sorry I switched on your mood swing. I did not intend to do that. Today its Valentines day.. I want to give you something that will make you feel special. Enjoy the rest of the day. I will just be here.. one text away if you need me.:)

O.M.G.

What can I say? Those outdoor slash beach pictures really cool down my tiredness from work. Nokarin pin ta? My guess is either Palawan or Pagudpud. Tara Dorothy! Let's go!

Mikanew client nanaman kanu kanyan, pilot team for Symantec. Hopefully akwa de kasi epasure talaga. Chat support ya kanu e.

At work, ok din. Maempty ne ing mailbox tapus reply nala deng daratang. Dakal la kanu reng volume of work kanyan kasi bagya-bagya lilipat dana kanu keni.

something to look forward...

suko naku.. ali kula aayus... paki ayus muna lamu... deng picture aren... pakalawen mula at hulaan mu nukarin yan...

Leap

Eku sure bakit leaping man ya ing kebit kung picture. Ahh, uling atin nakung connection! hehehe

Marakal reason bakit a leap ing post ku ngeni. Today is supposed to be the end of my singleness. Pero due to fortunate-unfortunate events, all plans changed.

No room for regrets though. Maniwala ku na egana-ganang bage mundu ating rason. Ala naman talagang mawala, dudurut mu ing egana-gana. Lupa mung ating mewala pero pag pekalawen mu at pekaisip, minta mu keng alwang bage o medivert. Ing importante mu naman keni is maging responsible kareng actions a gagawan tamu. Stand at our words na lulwal keng asbuk. 

Dororthy, salamat keng last post mu. Meant alot. In time makabawi kurin keka. But for now need to focus on the things na kailangan kung ayusan. Thanks for staying. 

for the meantime...

"Ala ku kanung dispusisyun. I admit. Aku ing taung alang dispusisyun, malamya at e makagawang desisyun keng sarili ku. Aku ta!"

I honestly do not like what you said about yourself my dear.... eme hamakan sarili, nung ating mikakarapatang sumabi kanyan apin ta i Ma mu. Parehu kayung ating fault kaya ali na ngan papasa keka ing kasalanan...

Anyway, di ba sabi ku keka let it go namo pa in the meantime? meantime mu naman.. meaning ali naman pang habang buhay... just be patient... aburen me nanung isipan at gawan na... you just keep hurting each other... pota you will end up hating each other instead of being friends... respect what she wants... ask for a simple sorry, and tell her na gang ali ka mag agree keng buri na sige respect mu... pakisabi mung mayap na ali ne pagkait karapatan mung maging tatang... And sabian mu enaka bisang makipag argue pa kaya you will give her the decision... pero ita mu ing pakisabi mu, ing karapatang mu kang Cigil... Then tell her na sana maging friends kayu para kang Cigil.. ekayu mamaligwa pota lalung mipakarok situation... Please don't ever beg, just say it in a normal way... itang sorry do it sincerely... emu paburen sabianan nakang masasakit salita dear... enaka pakanan para insult nakang makanta... pardon me with my words pero ala yang karapatan... if she has a respect to you as a PERSON (as a person namu) dapat isipan na ing sasabian na para less mistake and less pain... Ating time masalese ya, tapus biglang magbayu, hayyyyyyyyyyy ninung ali makapag make-up mind kanta... Anyway I dont want to judge her and I dont have the right BUT... if she is mature enough dapat balu na when its time to accept things and patch things up... dapat balu na when to slow down... when to take it easy, when to take it slowly and surely... and she should Never decide on her own... anyway, what ever happens atiu ku mu keni... i'll be your friend, i'll help you carry on... sopan dakang tumahak king mundu ning kawala...

Again

Again we had an argument via the text messages we sent. I controlled myself once more not to reply to her last messages.

Makasnuk na talaga in malilyaring ini. Magtext yang magreact ku ketang decision na, pota namang magreact ku ena naman atanggap ing critisism.

Masyas ya talaga pusu!

Eku buring sinabi na ngeni is idrop naneng totally ing name ning baby pati ing pamaglage keng surname ku! Ditak na talaga patulan kune. Nung emu keng condition na eku na iprenu ing pamagtext ku kaya. Pero need to control my temper. In the end aku ngan lunto mikasalanan keni.

Ala ku kanung dispusisyun. I admit. Aku ing taung alang dispusisyun, malamya at e makagawang desisyun keng sarili ku. Aku ta!

Hay! On the lighter side, congrats Dorothy for your new job to be. Sana maging ok naka man ken. Go!

wanted: condom tester

Buri mung a feel ing ating gamit condom? Cge why not... para you will know the difference my dear.:) just don't forget the brand..Okamoto 02 or better 03... available in watson... balu ku yellow favorite mu... hehehe:) goodnyt my prince...

Down down

Almost four days na milabas pero down ya parin ing wireless Internet network ku. Everyday nakung mamawus Globe to confirm ing status and same vervatim ta.."On going maintenance.."

So here I am making a post keng Internet lounge keng canteen. Good thing mabilis connection keni tsaka alang gagamit kasi maranun pa.

Fingers-crossed sana within this week before ing off ku magawa ne ing network. Eku pamo memayad for the month of February keng subscription ku hehehe. Till 24 yapa ata due date ku. Pag akung mebusit kanini pacredit ke ing boung February tsaka ku magsasa-irate at manyad supervisor! LOL.

Second day of working week, three more days to go. And this Saturday is the day of lovers... who cares! OK I am not bitter, just making a strong statement. Sagli ot maninglish ku keng post kung ni. Feeling ku kailangan kung bilisang magtype kasi pota atin manakit kakung gagawang post keng aliku official blog.

I'll be ending my post here for the day and hopefully marestore ne ing Internet ku bale.

mood swings...

My prince, you are always worried the way I will treat you with your mood swings... Kalupa ning sinabi ku keka, ing lulugud ali mu dahil keng good traits. Pag linugud ka tanggapan mu ngan nanu ya ing tau.. eku mag give up dahil mu ala ka keng mood, dahil mu ali ku buri ing moods mu, mayapang sabian mu kaku "Dorothy, edaka buri ugali, Dorothy, marok ka tau" siguru pag dimdam ko keka deta that is the time I will let go... Para kaku ing lugud ali ya maka base kung nanu ing weakness na ning tau, ing lugud maka base nung how far you trust the person, how far you can respect the person and how much humility you have for the person. Dear, I trust you with all my heart... ing respetu ku keka sobrang katas bilang tau at kaluguran... at willing kung magpakumbaba kasi balu ku emu gawan ing bage a kapahamak ku... kaya pag ala ka keng mood emu isipan na magbayu ku at sumawa ku.. atiu ku parin keni nanu man mood atin ka... kutang mu kaku kanyan, hanggang kailan ku kaya a gawa ini para keka... who knows... basta nung akung masunud ala kung balak mag bayu... kasi sabi ku pin keka, aku itang taung willing mag-alaga keka nung kaku naka bie ning Lord...

Nandin, ibat ku keng interview, okay naman.. makanini buri da... atin yang pre-hire assesment for 2 days.. dapat apasar ke para mika job offer ku.. if ali ke ala kung job offer... Makati ita and kaku gastus... ok mu sana kc 2 days yamu.. oneng ali ku pa sure nanu ya ing offer da after that IF (if incase lang ah) mipasar ku... kc db sabi ku any shift but dapat weekends off... ngeni ali ku knows nung go ke o ali... Hayyyyyyyyyy... mapagal pero i have to go through all of this to find the best job for me. Kaya ko to with your support...salamat ulit...

good night...

by the way: atin kung seling pasalubung keka.... something yellow ulit.. hehehe

Missing:

I miss your lovely face my prince...its been a week since I saw you...good night

Angel...

Balu ku ala kung karapatang kang Cigil... pero buri ku abalu mu lurugan ke kalupa na ning lugud ku keka...

It went well....

Masalese naman ing resulta, interview, test, test test, interveiw ulit... after that we will call you for another interview....easy mu ing test and interview swertihan mu talaga keng obra... eku pa miras bale minaus nala.. sabi da another interview on monday.... hmmm sana positive, pero tutu na nini ali ke buri ing off na nitang account a assign da if ever man... pero bahala na... saka kuna probleman pag atiu ne Job offer na...

Keng maghapun ayni nakung karakal aisip... simpling pangarap na sana atupad ku... eku na deny gang balu ku situation mu inabe daka kareta... pero i put limit to myself ... pangarap na kayabe ya ing KAluguran...siguru masyadung ideal pa ngeni pero simply la mung abutan... at datang panahun agawa tala deta... pero ngeni salikut ku nala pa keng pusu ku...

by the way: atin kung seling pasalubung keka.... something yellow... akit me din, surprise ya

Bawal na

Mehigpit floor kasi atin atang merakap magchat. Kaya bawal pa magnon-business. Nung buri mukung akasabi, mage-mail nakapa. Buti namu meempty ne mailbox nabengi mekapagpetiks kepang mga two hours hehehe. Buri darin ngeni bumaba la deng owned cases mi kasi ketang graph pekamarakal ya ing team mi. Uyta ta eko pengclose deng cases ko. Bahala ne ing CE kanyan. Ala no nanamang agawa kaya owned cases nanaman aisip da.

Atin kung gadget keng sidebar ning desktop ku about Cigil. At this day, 103 days namu before ing estimated delivery na. atin ya din drawing. Kalupa kune hahaha (generic yamu drawing).

Magexam ka Skykes ngeni. Sana akwa mu. Pero feeling ku eme masyadung type ing work tapus tech pa. Nung eka man makwa, emu isipan failure ta. Makanyan talaga magjob hunting. Since mantun kang work, dapat pilinan muneng masalese para e daratang time na kailangan magresign ka ulit. Basta do your best Dorothy! Aja! Tira-tira!

Panayan...

Panayan dakang mag online keng yahoo... pero palage ku madakal ka work... busy ka... kalupa na ning sabi ku nandin.. minimize ku worry... enjoy ka my cute prinsipe... good night..

Sana...

Ating sariling panahon ing LUGUD… Minsan, bigla pag dadatang… Minsan malabat bayu maging keka… Madalas ali sasarian… Madalas panayang malambat.. Pero keng pamanenaya keng LUGUD.. . Hanggang kapilan tang Sagli NAMU...
Kaibat na ning hundred years, sana aku na itang para keka, itang babaing luguran mu, itang babaing ipaglaban mu, itang babaing buri mung akit bayu ka matud, itang babaing buri mung akit kagising mu, itang babaing abe mu ali mu keng saya lalu na keng lungkut, itang babaing pagkatiwala me ing sarili mu, itang babaing dinan mung pagkakataun para luguran nakang tapat at busilak. Datang man ta o ali, masaya ku na meging part naku ning bie mu... Masaya ku at apakit ku keka ing nanung atsu keng pusu ku... aparamdam ku makananu dakang kaluguran... nung makananu dakang hangaan, makananu katas lawe ku keka.. sobrang salamat kakung prinsipe... IKA ing SAYA ku, LAKAS ku, at LUGUD ku...

Ikaw na ang may sabi

Na ako’y mahal mo rin
Ang sinabi mong
Ang pag-ibig mo’y
‘di magbabago

Ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako’y
lumalapit ika’y lumalayo
Puso’y laging nasasaktan
pag may kasama kang iba

‘Di ba nila alam
Tayo’y nagsumpaan
Na ako’y sa iyo
Ika’y akin lamang

Kahit anong mangyari
Pag-ibig ko’y sa ‘yo pa rin
Kahit ano pa
Ang sabihin nila’y ikaw pa rin

Ang mahal
Maghihintay ako kahit kailan
Kahit na
Umabot pang ako’y nasa langit na
At kung ‘di ka makita
Makikiusap ka’y Bathala
Na ika’y hanapin, at sabihin
Ipaalala sa iyo
Ang nakalimutang sumpaan
Na ako’y sa iyo
At ika’y akin lamang

Lamang …

Good morning!

To ease the depression, a yellow flower for you...

Depression

Itamu ngan dadalan keng ups and downs, ing kalungkutan normal yang emotion na ning tau. Ing normal stress keng bie pwedi yang maging malungkut a feeling paminsan minsan. Depression is just feeling blue, sad or down. Balamu strong mood yamu na ating kalungkutan, discouragement, or kawalang pag- asa keng metung a bage. Madalang mung daratang ing bage ayni kaku.. Itang feeling kung akung dili, itang feeling na alang taung lulugud, itang feeling a makalunus.. gang balu ku ali naman tutu, kc atin kung family, friends and special friends. Most of the time kasi aku itang taung I don't really show what are the sad part of my life.. I tend to keep them kasi balu ku lumipas la din. Sabi napin nitang kanta, "they dont know that I come running home when I fall down and drop my sword and cry for a while". Maniwala ku keng ing egana-gana ating dahilan, datang ing panahun masagut la ngan deng kutang.. Maniwala ku na ating ngang panahun keng bage-bage.. minsan magduda ku, pero at the back of my mind atin ku paring faith... gang kapurit mu, aliya milako ita kapilan man... keng panahun ayni na ning life ku, salamat at ating dintang metung a tau, ya ing taung asasabihan ku keng makanining moment of sadness. Ya mu ing makiramdam, ya ing buri kung makiramdam, ya ing lakas at happiness ku.. Pag ikit kune smile, feeling ku I can face the world, at agawa ku ngan gang imposibly yapa..

Keng milyari nandin, sorry ne. Emu isipan na nireject daka, I would never ever reject you my dear, TRUST me. Ala kung anyaran aliwa keka, basta TRUST my actions and my LOVE for you... Above all we are Friends.. I will never reject you... that will never happen... I love you more than you'll ever know, more than my heart could ever show... Atiu ku mu keni.. kayabe muku gang nukarin laban na ning life mu...

Lakwan ke keka ing kantang ayni gang keni mung lugar ayni kaku kamu:

Sometimes i wonder
If i'd ever make it through
Through this world
Without having in you
I just wouldn't have a clue
Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me
And there's no way of breaking free
And then i see you reach for me
Sometimes i wanna give up
Wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
And then i see you baby
And everything's alright
Everything's alright
When i see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know i can do anything
When i see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh i see it shining
Right through the rain
When i see you smile
Baby when i see you smile at me
Oh yeah
Baby there's nothing in this world that could ever do
What the touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that i ever knew
Hey
And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it
Cause you're here with me now
I wanna ask you baby
It's all i¹ll ever need
All i'll ever need
When i see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know i can do anything
When i see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh i see it shining
Right through the rain
When i see you smile baby
Baby when i see you smile at me
Sometimes i wanna give up
I wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you baby
And everything's alright
Hey everything's alright
It's alright
When i see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know i can do anything
When i see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh i see it shining
Right through the rain
Yeah
When i see you smile
Yeah i can face the world
Oh you know i can do anything now
When i see you smile
Oh yeah
Baby when i see you smile
Smile at me

Switch

Tinext daka keng biglang mood swing ku. Salamat kareng advices mu. Buri kulang abasa. Antindyan muku kareng sentimyentu ku. Eka rin makasarili kareng payung bibye mu. Agyang balu mung manasakit ka.

Sinabi kung buri dakang akasex ngeni. Eme pinansin. Metung a bage makalako focus kaku pag baliwalaan la deng malating detalye. Medyu extreme ni pero malagad kung sasabi. Kaya pay attention dear. Dudurut keng salu kung ing magulung sitwasyun ngeni. Ikang maging panulu ku. Lalati ku pasensya pag atin kung sinabi tapus eme pinansin. Demanding datang ni pero apin ni aku. Apin na ini ing durut ning mood swing ku. Saya biglang dabug ing resulta. Eku mabuysit keka. Mainis ku keng sarili ku kanini. Bakit kupa sinabi tang buri dakang akasex ngeni? E kaserious ning pisabyan? Siguru uling ikang maging outlet ku. Pasensya na ne.

Nung buri mukung e milako focus, make sure makafocus ka kaku. If atin kang alwang gagawan o kasabi sabyan mu. KSP ku ata. Palage mu? Maging interesadu ku kareng bage interasadu kaku.

Talnanan gamat

Aha... kaya pala... penaya muku pang mengulit... pasensya naka eku agad aisip na pota mapagal ka ibat king obra... nabengi bayu matud, isipan ku siping daka keng lele ku... malakak pero mayna mu, tapus bigla kung amiss ketang marimlang lugar... nang kasanting at kanyaman isipan ing atlung aldo ayta gang ulit-ulitan ku. King bie ku ali ku pa yata linugud makanini, itang handa ku king nanu mang mangyari, minsan nga ali ku na buring sasabian kasi pota lunto kung OA at ali kapani-paniwala... ali ku din bisang mangaku na pota mapaku mu. Basta ngeni ing buri kung gawan is mantun obra at luguran daka gang ali pa panahun... pero maniwala ku na datang din ing panahun maging makanini kata...lumakad kata ulit ketang marimlang lugar na ali ta parehu balu ing puntalan...matula kata parin, masaya, at talanan gamat...

Chu naku

Dintang ku bale biglang megmood swing. Makasnuk pag makanini ku daramdaman. Nabengi kasalese kupa, ngeni totopak naku nanaman. Megtext ya Dorothy. Eke sikasu. Aisip ku kailangan ku ng magreply kasi balu ku penayan naku. "Pwdng lambingan m0ko p?" ing tinype ku cellphone ku. Failed! 0.10 nemu load ku. Magtipid ku ngeni kaya eku pa magload. Len tana mu nung dumurut ne nanaman ing kautakan ku, bigla nakung makapagtext kaya pangabagya.

Ninu i Prince Troy?

Metung yang simpling tau pero kamangha mangha ya pagkatau... ala naku sigurung akit pang kalupa na... masanting a kaluguran, masayang kasabi, byasang makyabe, maganaka, malambing, byasa, matni a buntuk, ali mayabang, ali mapagmata, ali mapanyamantala, apagkatiwalaan at ing importanti masanting at manyaman a lalaki... hehehe. Ali ke mu kaLUguran, KAluguran ke rin... ali ke mu sasamban, pagnasan ke rin... simpli ya mu pero malaman ya pangatau, itang taung ali uugse, taung pag akilala me balu mu kayamanan ya... itang taung pagsisisyan mu ot ali me liguran... itang taung halus atiu na ngan kaya..