Aawitan kita:)

if you've got dreams in your heart
why don't you share them with me?
and if dreams don't come true
i'll make sure that your nightmares
are through

if you've got pain in your heart
why don't you share it with me?
and we'll just wait and see
if it's awful what it used to be

and lay it down slow
lay it down free
lay it down easy
but lay it on me

if you've got love in your heart
why don't you keep it with mine?
i can't promise a miracle
but i'll always be trying

and lay it down slow
lay it down free
lay it down easy
but lay it on me

lay it down easy
lay it on me

lay it down easy
but lay it on me


for whatever your going through I wish I will be able to help you in my own little way, but I have no more right to do that... you never did consider me as a friend nor i never felt like one... but Im still hear, pushing myself towards you... my life is happy right now, problems comes along but I m still here, living my life the way it is... one day, I will have that person I been wanting... and I will let you meet him... one day...

You takes my BRETT away :)

Lay It Down Slow Lyrics
(must watch certified ***** stars)
if you've got dreams in your heart
why don't you share them with me?
and if dreams don't come true
i'll make sure that your nightmares are through
if you've got pain in your heart
why don't you share it with me?
and we'll just wait and see if it's awful
what it used to be and lay it down slow lay
it down free lay it down easy but
lay it on me if you've got love in your heart why don't you keep it with mine?
i can't promise a miracle but
i'll always be trying and lay it down slow
lay it down free lay it down easy but
lay it on me lay it down easy lay it on me
lay it down easy but lay it on me

Peace Love and Yellow

Its been a long time since I wrote my thoughts on here. Updates, updates, updates... my life was pretty much the same as before. the last time i wrote something here I am still bitter... but now I can totally say no more bitterness.. now I believe that if you love someone you have to set them free.... in time feelings will go away. yes, contrary of what I thought it was during that time. I have given my love and life but good thing I was able to get them back. and thanks to you. today I am totally happy.. I may not have the person to share it with but just a little more time... i dont want to rush everything, i want to wait for the right time.... Dakal narin migbayu keng life ku... Ali tana siguro maging friends pa or ali tana siguru miyakit pa kapilan man, ayus mu... maybe this is meant to happen... masaya ku at minsan dinalan ka keng life ku... lagi ku parin maging proud keka... I will always respect you... I will always pray for you... I will always look up to you... I will always remember you... I will always pray for you... I will always look out for you... I will always be a fan. You will always be as you always are to me...

inHeil-exHeil

I met a gay, and I find him so smart and intelligent and okay he is cute.... when you first look at him you will not think that he is a gay... as for my experience he catched my attention the way he carry himself and the way he dressed... but later on he said "actually I am not even straight... and I cannot be attracted to anyone because I am presently committed with someone who is the same sex..........toinks!!! wek-wek-wek-wek... uhum that is correct.... and I said to myself "langya sayang lahi nito"... from that day forward I find it weird liking a gay person... it was my first time to like a gay to be my close friend... the sad part there was he is my boss and I am not allowed to... which means impossible... Anyway, I just want to write this one just to ease the negative energy out of my body... Ann left a message on my facebook telling me that she was so upset to her suitor being so judgemental= negative, Maja texted me and commented on my friendster that she was so upset being in London alone and she wants to go home, again = negative, Amy, called and emailed me she was so upset with her husband not being so supportive with her plans and she also whats to go home= negative... all my colleage now are so upset with the policies... I honestly dont know where to get a possitive energy anymore... my chances of getting the job done is getting slimmer... why the people around me are so negative? their energy is pulling me down... I cant talk to anyone that will make me feel lighter...that make me feel everything will going to be okay... make it or break it they are still there for me... I know they will be there but what I need right now is someone who can lift up my morale... my boat is sinking... by writing it down here I know it will somehow lessen the burden... some people might find it non sense but they really do not have the idea how i am feeling now.... it's not sadness nor loneliness... it was losing my positive energy to negative one.... I wanted to tell my mom, can I just sleep for a year? or can I just sleep for the rest of my days? can I just migrate on another planet that nobody was there? can I just scream???? waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

Goodbye: orasmakina100

I dont want to say goodbye on this blog.. but for some reasons I have to stop this... It's really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends,but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers. When I first saw you, I thought you were too good to be true, The innocent look in your eyes, Made me realize I loved you, For days I acted perfect to see if you liked me too, You started caring and I thought it was for real, I always fool myself trying to believe that you did care about me. I don't know what to do, I loved you, I was begging God for your friendship and I was so happy, But one day you left without a word, That very moment my heart shattered, I wanted to cry, But not in front of you, and i dont want people to know, So I ran home, And I cried a million tears.... until now the tears haven't subside... Poor me, I fooled myself believing that I am a friend worth keeping... Wel, keng friendship ayni, aliwa aku ing minunang binitiw... balu ku naman ali ku worth enough to keep... minsan kitang ku keng sarili ku, in what way ku megkamali ot makanyan ing treatment mu kaku... pero sabi ng Ann, its better not knowing.... kaya tanggapan ku namu... manghinayang ku man, ali murin importanti kasi ika ali ka... Balu ku mapagal naka rin, 6 weeks ka nang tumatakbo sa isip ko... walang oras na di ka tumakbo sa utak ko... kaya from this day forward... kakalingwan ku na minsan you are my close friend... masakit kasi nung ating metung a bage kung sinikapan ingatan, dinan importansya, lugud, attentyun, pagbiliban ku, peniwalan ku... ika mu ita... at hanggang ngeni ali ku pa alako lako.... I am saying goodbye...

always loving you.. Lei... aka Dorothy...

Orientation day

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! OO na baliw na talaga ako.... walang kokontra... cute at masayang bumili ng yellow eh...April 4, 2009.. Orientation day.. It was OK than I expected... I went home happy and wearing a smile in my face... and I want to share it... here is what I got for my dear friend...

Good News....

Kahit ako nalang maisa dito.... I will still share this for my own memory...April 2, 2009 I recieved a blessing... and to my friend, I am sharing this with you... gusto ko malaman mo na naaalala parin kita kahit wala kana... I still have something yellow for you... kahit di ko na mabibigay okay lang... sobrang cute.. at alam ko bagay na bagay sayo.... hehehe and tama na size nyan....nabaliw na yata talaga ako.... hehehe

Rainbow Connection

In one of the mass I attended, the homily goes something like "itamung tau maging mabaya tamu ketang bage na pahalagaan tamu" the priest explained it further by giving some example like... ing metung a taung pahalagaan na ing oras, ena buri ing ating malelate, ing metung a tau pahalagaan ne ing tiwala, ena buri ing pagdudan de... makanya tamu mabaya tamu keng bage didinan tang halaga. Inisip kula reng bage na importanti kaku, family I grew up with, friends who stayed, and I guess You... If deta reng ating kasiyaan masaya ku, ating lungkut malungkut ku, ating luha luluha ku, ating problema mamoblema ku... Den deng bage pahalagaan ku, kaya importanti kaku ing balu ku how they are doing... Mabaya ku pag asesense ku na ating ali normal... keng milabas a aldo normal kekata ing mipag text... normal ing mipagkwentu kata... normal ing mipagchat kata...normal ing mikikit kata that's why I felt I was being single out, I was being forgotten. People have different views on things, different opinions on situations and different emotional reactions... sometimes what we see is not what's exactly inside, what we thought was not the right one, what we feel is not what's it meant to be... Two things words and actions, we do little actions and say certain words for us to be understood... we should not let people we love or people close to our hearts to assumed things the way they see it, experience it and feel it. For if we do, we will never be understood... and worst we will be judged... I am sorry, I assumed things the way I felt, the way I saw, and the way I experienced it... I am sorry I judged you, I reacted base on my own personal feelings gang balu ku naman why are you being like that... if kasalanan ing magcare kekang makanta, or matsurang pamanugali keka ing magtampu uling biglang megbayu ing normal... SORRY... I care about the people I love and I care about you... minsan kasi emu alako keng metung a tau ing manasakit or maging malungkut lalu na if mahalaga ya keka ing tau. Pag pinigil mu lalung dadakal, pag selikut mu lalung lulto, pag kakalingawan mu lalu mu e akalingwan. Yes, yes and yes.... sobrang importanti ka kaku... eku balu bakit, eku balu ot makanini katindi, eku balu ot keka ku dimdam ini, eku balu what exactly made me fall for you... June pa, akilala daka pa the guy who is 2 pods away from my pod in the training room ... I was so pathetic na mag beg kang Lord na maging kung close keka, I was so pathetic na aku meg initiate mag text keka, so shameful na aku pang minunang meg email keka keng friendster dated June 21, 2008, so shameful na migigising kung galing-aldo para mag text keka, and so pathetic and shameful na aku minunang minamin I Like you...and I love you. Yes, it was something I wish for, since the day I known you, gang balu kung ali pwedi, sabi ku kahit friend man lang, yes I beg the Lord for that... Sana I can answer the questions why it was you?, what do you have?, what did you do?, Sana agyu ku lang sagutan deta... Sana agyu kung sagutan bakit patuluy dakang luluguran gang ala ng hope mitatagan keng pusu ku... Sana agyu kung sagutan na bakit luluguran daka pa gang edanaka akakasabi... Sana agyu kung sagutan na bakit alang magbayu keng daramdaman ku gang 1 month danakang ali akakit... siguru if ikit ku ing sagut... maybe then I can start the healing... Eku perpektung tau, atin kung sariling kahinaan, minsan manasakit pero lulugud kung tune... Sana ali pin datang ing time na akalingwan muku... Sana, sana, sana.... luguran mu ku rin... sana lang naman... para kahit sa sana mu man ating tulang mitagan keng pusu ku...

Ika ing taung asabi kung eku buring bili, Ika ing taung atiu keng pangarap ku, Ika ing taung ikit kung karapat dapat luluguran, Ika ing taung ala nakang pantunan pag akilala...Ika itang taung buri ku ulit akilala after 1000000 years a milabas. Nung para kaninu kaman, sana luguran naka tune at busilak... sana akit na ing bage na ikit ku keka... You are such a Great Man...

Rainbow Connection - Kris Aquino

..then you maybe right

If not texting you everyday that I am bout to go to work or I arrived home from work is leaving you singleout already. If not updating you bout my everyday activity is forgetting you already. 

..then you maybe right.

Your making contrary of all the things you said to the things you meant.

Broken Vow...

Lagi kung mangutang, pero laging alang sagut... pero ngening ali naku mangutang ating dadatang a sagut... i seldom visit my account in friendster now a days.. why? because I simply do no want to read anything... but today, for the request of a friend I have visited it and then WAW there is a new features where you see the activity that your friends done... and heres what I saw in front of my page... Hmmmm, speechless... I remember this photo you are telling me (eto ba yun?)... that it was dated march 2008 and there is something on the caption... you don't owe me an explanation... but yes I was hurt, yes my tears fell... I just realized and remember the thing you texted me before... sabi mu... "Emu b aicp why its easy 4 me n kbud n e pkisbyn dng tao? Lyk anyng ika. Its becoz i dnt fil anythng, Im telling u this para akila2 muku. Nung ok mu keka" I don't believe you before... and up to now ali ku parin manwala... siguru pin murit naku, ot mulala kung talaga... but I dont know why I trust you so much and I look up to you as a person... I believe in your talents , principles and attitude... is it worth it? yes... it is lalu na when I see the smile in your face... aniang pekisabian muku ulit that was Dec 22, 2008... I started praying novena to God and to St. Jude... na sana alang bibitiw keng friendship ta... nung ekata miyabe as partners sana ing friendship ta ali mawala or magbayu... but it happen again... Kaya siguru ngeni pangadi ku namu na sana maging masaya naka at eda naka pa akit... ali uling edaka Kaluguran... pero uling KALUGURAN dakang sobra sobra bilang ika at bilang friend... Emunaku man kapate eh, kakampi muku :( magkasangga kata, magdamayan king saya, lungkut at problema, makanta ka reng mikaluguran(friends) di ba? Bakit lagi kung masisingle out? siguru pin kailangan kung tangapan na ala kang feelings for me gang nanu... Kaya let me be the one to let you go... Please just do me a favor... Please don't ever try to save the friendship now with me if in time gawan mu ulit ini... if in time kabud naka ebumulad at emuku pakisabian... Sana apantun mu itang pantunan mu... sana apantun mu ing kaligayaan at katatahimik na ning isip mu... Maging masaya ku din... akit ku din ing kaku... lugud ku rin ulit kalupa na lugud ku keka... pero sana that time itang taung luguran ku para kaku ne... Am I ending anything? No... but I will stop wishing and hoping... and eventually, maybe I will stop loving... who knows... arian ke ing post ayni by reading this text message from you... this really blown my heart away... I was so touched with that. Feeling we are one great friends na ali matibag... you will always be in my heart dear gang nanu pang mengyari... Fan de coco mu ku parin...

Magpalamig tayo...

Sobrang init ng panahon... mas masaya if magpalamig tayo, sige ako taya... balu mo i manny pacquiao migbalik ne keng channel 2, atin din bayung asianovela, itang hot shots at boys over flower na korean version na ning meteor garder. break ne i pops and jomari, na pagtanggul ng martin... hay... nanu man ing mangyari keng mundu, laging tatandaan sa bawat pagsubok ng panahon ang buhay ay weather weather lang. :) mumulit mu ing egana gana, life is a series of intercepting lines and incidents, out of anyones control. sometimes we were meant to lose people, then when we return after being away, we realize that the only thing that has changed, is us. My dear, I have learned this qoute from a certain movie and I want to tell it to you: For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again...

Deja vu

Histoty repeats... ini ing atiu keng isip ku kareng milabas a aldo... Bakit laging aku ing pagbuntungan mung emotional vibes? makanta naku ba ka insignificant keng life mo kaya ok gang emuku pakisabian? I know I have nothing to offer... ni ala ku man ping apagmaragul... puru mu kakornihan, kagimikan, at kaOAyan ing papakit ku... siguru pin mababaw ing idea ku karas keng pamamakit lugud, pero ing asabi ku ita manibat keng pusu at tutu ita, gang makanta mu ita taus pusu kung gagawan... akala ku aniang misabi tana kaybat kung maresign at meging friends tana ulit ali na maulit pa ini... aganaka ke tuluy itang kitang ng Makoy kang Laida: ano bang meron ang taung un at patay na patay ka sa kanya? tapus segut na: di ba pag may isang tao kang pinapangarap pagnasa sayo na gagawin mo lahat para sa kanya?... ting!!.... tama sabi kung isip ku anyang dimdam ke... kalambat kung penaya ing makanining close friendship keka... ngening atiu na buri kung gawan ku ngan para keka... pero things are going in a different directions now. Eku na balu nung makananu kung mag behave keng makaninung situation... Eku mad but I can't deny the fact that I am sad... Pero ayus mu, yan ing buri mu eh... minsan aisip ku, siguru nung atiu kupa Etel kanyan, kada akakit daka with your Friends atin naku naman a feel a ingit kasi close kayu, masaya kayung akakit, at sabian ku keng isip ku.. mapa reng friends na they can always talk to him and be with him... ngeni ing aisip ku... mas maka ingit ya i ___ kc gang nanu pang masakit a words ing sabian na keka, gang pagdudan naka lagi, gang ala yang bilib keka, gang she hates your attitude, gang pamukha at sumbat mali mu lagi, gang ala yang tiwala keka, atin ya paring metung a bage na panghawakan na you can never let go... Samantalang aku, metung ku mung ghost na kapilan man ali megexist... puru illusyun, puru pangarap, puru drawing... But I can say I am not bitter... ali ku rin mad... makanta talaga eh, kailangan tangapan... I believe na datang din ing para kaku... My routines are pretty much the same, sleep at 12:30am, watch balitanghali, bubulung king langit na goodmorning, mangan tana, ingat, goodnyt, kmusta ya ing aldo at migigising parin 4:45am... siguru in time magbayu la rin... I always look at your pictures.... osimap elapa metunaw, matatag la... deta namu reng pakisabian ku lagi lol... simap ali la makibat laging lang makasmile para kaku...

Troy, eka sana mad keng post kung ayni at emu rin isipan edaka antindyan... eku mad keka, I know why are you being like that... lagi ka parin keng isip at pusu ku.. nung nanu ka kaku kanita makanyan ka parin ngeni... ena magbayu ita... Kaluguran daka parin... panayan ku itang aldo na ready naka ulit makisabi kaku... buri ku mung palwal ing lungkut... pero ayus ku mu...

Security

It's a Lovesong,

Dearest Troy,

A friend is a hand that is always holding yours, no matter how close or far apart you may be. A friend is someone who is always there and will always, always care. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing… not healing, not curing… that is a friend who cares. A friend is a feeling of forever in the heart. I made another music video for you... My heart wants to tell story but I don't know why I don't have the words to say... I can only sing you this song. I was hoping somehow you are reading my post... its my little way telling you that you are always in my heart . Enjoy your weekends.. My prayers are always with you. Keep Smiling.

Always Loving You,

Dorothy :)

PS:
i am open for comment and suggestion with the video... i am still learning... btw ala yang sound... youtube suck... email ku ne mu....

Beautiful to ME

Ginawa kung music video para keka... I am hoping gang makananu mu it will make you smile. I am open for criticism if atin yang mali. Please feel free to tell me. Pero metung ya ing sure kung e mali ke apin ing para keka ya yan at makayan ka kaku... Nung para kareng aliwa parti naka ning mundu, pero para kaku ika ing mundu... Love is like a river, always changing, but always finding you again somewhere down the road. I know gang everything is okay something is changing... makalungkut bagya but I know this things will make you happy... Do what you wish to do my dear balu mu naman keta kung makapagpasaya keka...

Beautiful

100 years after....

Silencio...

Menahimik ku for more than 24 hours... minisip... kasu at the end of the day I forget about everything that I thought... metung ya atandanan ku... migising kung ating karug keng lub ku eku balu nanu reason... something na ali ku antindyan... something na ating kung buring gawan pero ali balu nanu... the whole day I was holding a rosary and reading a book... meconfused ku anu itang feeling ayta... it was something I felt for the first time... pero sabi na ketang abasa ku everything is all in the mind. Start with positive thoughts and the rest will follow. Enaku bisang misip negative ... nung nanu ing mangyari kareng dadatang a aldo siguru sapat na ing pepakit ku para patunayan ku ing lugud ku... mawala ku man at makalingwan, God knows everything. At balu ku enaka paburen para kaku... Kasi balu na ika ing precious gem ku, masakit pantunan, true love comes once in a lifetime ada pin.. malagad mu ing makanining lugud kaya eku pagsisiyan.

In my dreams

I just drop by to say... I miss this....


I want to sing you this song... for my prince, my dear friend, my inspiration, my idol, my one true love..good night:)

You will know when you really love someone
When you want him to be happy even if his happiness means you are not a part of it.

From a far...

I am looking for an old picture on my saved mail and I came across an unsent email for you dated: (7/27/2008 10:13:55 PM China Standard Time) on this email I was confessing my admiration to you as friend which turn out to be a special feelings.. actually atin yapang song itang email and it goes something like this:

Nandito ako umiibig sa iyo
Kahit na nagdurugo ang puso
Kung sakaling iwanan ka niya
Huwag kang mag-alala
May nagmamahal sa iyo
Nandito ako

But it was not sent to you kasi tinakut ku ng maging reaction mu.:) kaya I choose to love you from a far..

Hold my hand

My Prince, balu ku atin kang buring gawan para kang Cigil pero ating takut na pota it will turn out to be not so go... Balu kung agyu mu yan, just remember my pointers, as much as posible avoid arguements and always say it in a way that she will feel na gang ali ka agree you are respecting her decisions still. If things did not turn out well, then try again next time... what ever the outcome one thing will not change... I will be here for sure.:) ayne pagkanta daka... gang eku masanting voice enala man mababalbal deng salamin pag magkanta ku... so pwedi neng pagtyagan bosis ku.

Tomorrow mornin' if you wake up And the sun does not appear I...I will be here If in the dark we lose sight of love Hold my hand and have no fear 'Cause I...I will be here I will be here... When you feel like bein' quiet When you need to speak your mind I will listen And I will be here When the laughter turns to cryin' Through the winnin' and losin' and tryin' We'll be together 'Cause I will be here Tomorrow mornin' if you wake up And the future is unclear I...I'll be here Just as sure as seasons are made for change Our lifetimes are made for years I...I will be here I will be here.... You can cry on my shoulder When the mirror tells us we're older I will hold you And I will be here To watch you grow in beauty And tell you all the things you are to me I will be here I will be true To the promise I have made To you and to the One who gave you to me I...I will be here...

I am praying for a positive outcome however just always remember that no matter what will happen good or bad atin ka paring trusted friend keng lele-lele na laging atiu para keka... maniwala keka... at lulugud keka:)

Retracted

She retracted her statement. Pinayag ne na gamitan ya ing name ning baby. What made her retract her previous statement? Ekuna kitang. Sabi kunamu thank you. Ala kupang sinabing alwa kaya like nung kmsta ne. Eku rin kasi balu ng sabyan ku kaya. Pota magstart nake nanamang mipate. Tapus bigla ne nanamang magchange mind.

Summer na ne? Kapale. Eku man gagalo kanini manimawas ku. Sabage ok mu para mas mabilis kung lumwal pawas. Magexercise naku after.

Suggestion pla, break your post into paragraphs para e masakit basan. Like if you are to shift a topic, para balance yang akakit ing post mu. Tapus use pictures na agad meng arecognize. Neng kalati tang racket picture pinost mu.

Napun pala megpadurut kung roleta. Ot bokya ya ing ikwa ko! hahaha. Malas ku talaga kareng makanta. Atin RnR kasi pag 7 up ka CE. Atin kupa atang chance kanyan kasi FW 3 and 4 more than 7 ku. Mangalati la deng prize. Chocolates, chips, USB, atin speakers, dumbbells, gaggles, mp3 players (CDR king). Pero agyang bokya atin parin chance manyambut GC, siguru iraffle dala ulit hehehhe.

Go! Troy Go!

What can I say, your most welcome my prince. Balu mu naman masaya kung ating agagawa at abibie little things for you. Salamat din ketang magazine at cd. Nice mag, bisa ku yatang paBelo lol. Itang movie Juno masating ya. I like it, brave girl and cool yamu. And eka mag sorry ken for not writing that much my dear, ayus mu ita balu ku naman rugu na ating kang work kaya antindian ku. Basta write here during your free time.
Last Saturday was great, kadakal ta apangan... Buri ku lagi makanta, itang sobra kabsi... sana we can do it like once a month, we eat all what we want to eat. As in sobra kabsi. itang magmakalunus na enakata bisa. Maswelu kung manakit pag I let you eat what you really crave and give it to you hanggang bisa ka.
Advices?? balu mu you can always count on me... mawala na lahat ali mu ing pamikaluguran ta... basta be positive. Good things awaits us... Just learn to trust God. Do not be hesitant to open your heart and share your life with me. i'll be your friend i'll help you carry on... Bawal ing drama, pero pag emu apigilan damayan daka no matter what. Salamat din pala keng energy bibie mu kaku. Ika mu magpalakas lub kaku, akit ke mu ing matamis mung smile hay pawi na lungkut keng pusu ku. Balamu puzzle ana ping Lyda mabubuo ya ing aldo ku pag akit daka gang keng picture mu. Masaya ku ding akit na masanting la reng survey mu. Masaya ing feeling kasi lagi dakang pag pray na sana lagi lang masanting kasi balu ku makananu kasakit keng Dell.
And lastly, awa nice idea na you will be playing badminton. Dakal ka benefits, balu ku naman magaling ka at masating ing makakilalang new friends. Basta lagi kang mimingat ah at ali me baburen langi pawas keng gulut mu para ali ka sipun. Balamu yata masanting nung yellow ya badminton racket me ah... Basta samasan mu ah. Buri ku damdaman kwentu mu. Ala ku man karin pagcheer daka in spirit.

Go! Troy Go! Go! Troy Go! Go! Troy Go! Go! Troy Go!

Its been a while

Yellow! 

Its been a while since I last posted here. Sensya na Dorothy and thanks for always understanding me. 

Puru ya thank you ing post ku hehehe. Thanks for all the YELLOW stuffs you gave me. LOVE all of them. 

Thanks for last Saturday's treat. Sana ali ta ing maging last. I am hopefull marakal pang sunud makanta. Enjoying each other's company. Sagli, ot maging hopefull ku e friends tamu. Syempre it will be repeated ne :)

Thanks for the advices you gave me last night. Truely saved those texts. And for your never fading energy in doing so.

Akasabi ke pala nandin kots R agkat nakung magbadminton. Ala la sigurung abe or kulang la. Monday morning pwede ku hehehe. Sayang din ta, sports plus exercise plus company of other people diba :)

Masakit ka pusun ngeni. Sana atin kung agawa para malessen ing pain daramdaman mu. Minum tanang beer tara! heheheh. By the way, so far ala kung disat ngeni! Pero deng pinrocess ku today feeling ku atin magsasairate. Hopefully ali neman. Basta positivity!

Keng work mu naman, sabi ku pin eka papressure. Its work. Its not na maging lesser person naka or ala nakang kwenta nung eka agad manakit work. You watch news and you can see naman diba na marakal maglako. Bad timing mu ni. Basta bawal ing quiter! Apply mung apply. Pag eka mekwa keng metung edi next naman. Makanta mu ta. Eka marine nung eka mipasar. Ala namang taung e magfail e. Mas makarine tang magmalun naka kekayu kasi eka mipasar keng adwa o atlung pamagapply.

Morning Dorothy :)

Clear Water

Sabi da open communication will help you understand and will make things clearer. True:). Just today the situation or should I say your mood swing for the past few days kasing claru na ne ning damu. Yep, mas antindyan kuna ngeni... mas payapa naku utak ngeni... pero syempre medyu malungkut kasi sabi ku keka diba keka ku kukwang lakas king aldo aldo kasi deng aliwa kung friends medyu busy nala. Pero makanta man antindyan daka. And as I promise you, gawan ku para keka... pero sana okay mung text daka if atin kung buring kwento ne but don't worry ali ku magexpect reactions. Sana ali naman din bawal ing mangutang keka, lalu na if vocabulary words. Maging boring man ing pamaglibut ku kasi ala kung saling pasalubung, maging boring man kasi ala kung paggawan kareng gimik kung surprises, maging boring man kasi ala kung panayan muli neng abak a maranun, maging boring man kasi ala kung kasabe malbe balitanghali, maging boring man kasi ala kung katext abak-ugtu-bengi, at higit sa lahat maging boring man kasi ala kung pag-alayang lugud, pilitan kung maging masaya at masigla para keka. Ini talaga ing penintun ku kareng milabas a aldo, itang metung kung kaibigan... aliwa itang sex on text or sex on phone. Itang metung a kaibigan na eku apagpalit kahit minsan sobra ya ka moody. Itang metung a masating a lalaki lalu na pag bayu yang gupit. hehehe (btw nakang kapogi nandin after mung megupitan hair ali bola yan ah) ... Madagul adjustment pero kakayanin ko para keka. Basta promise mu kaku na eka mangalingwan ah. At if ever at anytime at any situation kailanganan mu ing saup ku, ATIU KU mu lagi keni para keka... Nung nanu ka kaku ngeni at kanita, makanyan ka parin keng pusu ku gang maging aliwa ing sitwasyun. Hangad kumu dear ing kaligayaan mu gang aliwa aku ing buring mung kayabe ketang kaligayaan ayta. Ali drama ini, tatanggapan ku mu at maging positive ku keng sitwasyun. Siguradu ating rason ini ot makanini... metung yang way ini para a pakit ku keka na tune ing lugud ku. Maniwala ku na ing lugud ali ya maymut, aliya matas a puluk... aliya mu kabud feeling... metung yang behavior para ketang taung kaluguran mu. Sabi da pin, its how a person treat you in every situation for all of your life...

PS: Salamat at kelwalan ka nandin, gang malabat sobra... 2 1/2 na pala ing milabas... masaya ku parin kasi ikit ku... failed naku naman keng oral pero salamat at antindyan mu. At saka pala sana aburi mula retang yellow things ku for you... gang simply lamu rugu.

Aku...

Sabi da ing bie ning metung a tau antiyang Bangka king metung a dagat malat nung okarin baluna nung okarin ya papunta, kasu enabalu nanu ngan ing manayang kasakitan king kayang pamaglakbe, Atin yang makanyan ing biye na ning metung a taung kalupa ku... Balu ku nanu ing buri ku at pangarap ku para miras ku king dapat kung puntalan, pero eku asabi nung nanu ing karasan ku kabang mag lakbe ku at maki pag brusu kareng egana ganang kapag subukan... Asabi ku neng minsan masaya, atin lungkut at kasakitan... Pero para kanaku ali importanti nanu man ing pegdalanan ku, Ing importanti mebyasa ku makananu kung mekilaban king nanu man a kapag subukan a tikman ku kabang mag lakbe ku. Kareng milabas a aldo dakal ku aisip pero ing a tutunan ku ing eka mamasa nanu man king biye, Balu ku at balu mu.. datang murin ing pagkakataun na para kaku..ing bage na pangadi ku at itang pangarapan ku... ing importanti masaya ku habang ating pagkakataun... para ing biye ku maging makule... lumawe ku kareng masating a mangyari aliwa kareng bage na ali ku buri... makuyad ya ing biye... dapat mas dakal ing masaya kesa keng malungkut...

Patawad kareng mali ku... patawad kareng pagkukulang ku... ing lugud ku ali magbayu... gang pilan pang banwa ing lumabas... pero maging responsabli naku kareng aksyon a gagawan ku...

Missing: PRINCE TROY

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me. Whatever you are going through now... you can always count on me... we are friends after all... diba? what I had with you, ala naku sigurung ali agyung tanggapan... kaya sana mibalik naka mood my dear... mas cute kang atiu keng mood... mas masaya... mas makulay... the prince i met with great qualities.:)

as for me, I am doing fine:)... I spend most of my time reading... tv... saka i whisper in the air for you... hehehe... itang buri kung text most of the time sasabian ku keng langit... saka ako humihiling sa langit ng isang himala... aliya pin pa sasagut pero im patiently waiting... I have faith... ingat ka lagi keng pamagdrive pagpalub and paulit, exercise ka, eat enough, sleep well, and drink alot of pineapple juice... hehehe joke...sige tulog nako... 12am na..

Okay

Break... Sure... take all the time you want... pero ing tutu na niyan migaganaka ku kc last time mung sinabi yan binilang kung weeks or months bayu ka mekisabi ulit... isawan ku na sanang mangyari pa ini pero ika parin naman ing sundan ku... respect ku parin naman buri mu. Peka pagpray ku namu sana e lalambat... ali SANA ngening panahun ayni na ala kung aliwang apagkuhanan lakas nung aliwa ika. Balu mu naman diba jobless ku and still searching, advice mula reng magpalakas lub kaku. Pero makanyan man mas buri kung gawan mu nanung makapagpasaya keka... I won't mind dear, I'll be fine... i will just be around waiting for you to comeback...

Sore

Im sorry I am not able to text you that much, masakit ya daliri ku. Tsaka yapa minataki mood swing ku. 

But I am ok. Just want some quiet time for myself on my off. Sana you won't mind me taking some break. Movie marathon ku napun. Tapus TV tsaka sleep. Mesakit kupin ata katawan keng sobra tudtud! Kaya need to stretch and exercise/

Anyway its work week again. 

Run to you

I singing this song...

"I know that when you look at me. There’s so much that you just don’t see but if you would only take the time I know in my heart you’d find a girl who’s scared sometimes who isn’t always strong. Can’t you see the hurt in me? I feel so all-alone. I want to run to you; won’t you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm? If I come to you, tell me, will you stay or will you run away. Each day, I play the role of someone always in control but at night I come home and turn the key there’s nobody there, no one cares for me. What’s the sense of trying hard to find your dreams without someone to share it with tell me what does it mean? I need you here to wipe away my tears and to kiss away my fears If you only knew how much… "

gusto kong mabuhay ng simply lang, simple ngunit may kulay, may pagmamahal, respeto, tiwala, pagpapakumbaba, pangunawa, katuwaan, pagkakaibigan at konting kahirapan... balang araw sana mabuhay tayo ng ganyan lang... ganyan lang kasimple...

PS:
penaya daka buong aldo... at panayan daka pa at panayan daka parin...

Long day

Long day I must say, birthday nitang pamangkin ku ngeni and minta kami. Close family tsaka barkada ng mother nitang magcelebrate dend atchu. Masaya naman. Thinking of it, 20k is ok narin for a birthday keng Mcdo. Less hassle basta munta nakamu tsaka magbirthday hehehe. I think good for 80 person ne ta. Ala mang 80 ata kareng dintang, well less detang mangalating anak. But overall, nice celebration :)

After the birthday, minta kaming mader keng mall. Seli keng phone. Machura ne kasi phone na tsaka malabu ne backlight uling tang plastic screen na sapak neng gasgas. Almost my sweldo for the half of the month pero ok mu. Malambat kune rin balak sali din e. Tang cellphone na binye nepang dara ku before.

Kauli as usual magsabi-sabi ne nanaman tatang ku. Always on the negative side of the story. Gagana ya pa kanu tang luma ng cell maku. Naku enaku binulad at inayus kune mu PC ku. Tear down ke to the mobo ing gewa ku. Inayus ke tang fan ning CPU. Buti namu ngeni medyu stable ne ing temperature na. Maglinis ku ring files, buburn kunala para adelete kunala.


Xet ini na ing aisip ku pane ngeni. Work, outside, at home. Hay. This position is one that you sent na buri mung gawan. Safe ka as you said and I believe in it. I know emuku pahamak especially keng situation ku ngeni. Looking forward for next week. Keng bonding moment ta. Bond literally hehehe. Gawan ku ngan buri ning puki mu basta balu ning butu ku na safe ka...

Para keka..

Manibat nanding kagising ku, I feel like im annoyed... eku balu bakit eku balu king nanu at kung kaninu... in short alang dahilan... tapus megtxt ka at bigla kung ayalala na manibat aniang wednesday mabayat nala reng boobs ku. kaibat nandin ing punsun ku daramdaman ku ne rin mabayat. ngeni ku pa aisip wapin pala atiu naku keng safe zone... ing period na daramdaman kuna mag period naku ing after 10 days. Ali ku a panaya ing ing 28, sobrang excited naku... kinwa keng cellphone ku at linawe ke tang bed ta king baguio.. at sinabi ku keng sarili ku "grabe a miss ku ing moments ta karin" . Ng kasanting reminisce ing panahun ayta. sabi mu pin ala katang isipan aliwa nung ali, manga, matud, lumibut at sex. It was the best getaway I ever had. Itang effort ku priceless ing kapalit which was the smile in your face...it was so priceless my dear. Your dance was so amazing, it was something na ikang ginawa kanta for me. Ikit mu naman mengapakyak ku... sige na call me OA, call me mababaw kaligayaan, pero I was really touch with that act. Siguro dahil kaluguran daka at balamu dream come true kaku na gawan mu ita for me. Oyni pin susulat ku mangapaluha naku naman... Feeling ku kc in my whole life alang gawang makanta for me, yeah my passed treated me like a princess, but they failed to see that I am just a simple girl na simpling buhay mu ing pangarap. Before kala ku ing lugud feeling yamu, na feeling masaya ka pag kayabe me, kasabi me, akakit me. Pero ngeni ku pa aisip ing lugud aliya mu kabud feeling. Instead Love is best seen as devotion and action, not an emotion. Love is not exclusively based on how we feel. Certainly our emotions are involved, but they cannot be our only criteria for love. True devotion will always lead to action—true love. Atin pala talagang datang a tau king bie mu na gang makananu ya kaordinary king mata da reng aliwa, keka aliya, keka metung yang gintung kikinang everytime na mislagan yang aldo. Gana ganang bage kaya masating o ali agyu mung tanggapan. Ing papakit ku keka ali manayang kapalit kapilan man... masaya ku nung datang ing time na panayan ku at pangarap ku... basta maniwala ku na TRUE LOVE waits.... remember that... at balang aldo sabian mu kaku.. tutu pala ing sasabian mu amo...

Coming up!

Katext daka ngeni at sabi mu magcrave kang burger steak. So here it is dear! heheheh. Drawing napa ne pag mikit kata akung magserve keka kanyan :)

Day off mode naku! Buti namu last day na ngeni. Bukas makipagbirthday kami Mcdo ketang pangunakan ku. Tapus managkat ya i mader keng SM.

Xet one week namu! Yahoo! hahahha. Everyday namu aisip ko detang text mu. Agyang gematan kune e parin mawala ing pali ning katawan ku. Hay mibugnus kanyan ni pag mikit kata. Safe. Safe. Safe...

Ing PC ku magkatemperature issue ya talaga. Nilawe ke nandin tang fan ning CPU na loose ya. This off kune mu kalikutan. Megsystem restore naku same parin. Pag e megaling kanini magOSRI kung e oras. Buti namu ok ya ing connection ku. Makapagupdate ku agad.

Ing busit a MMS naman e parin bisa. Later break ku mawus ku ulit pagpaSup naku! hehehe. Sayang ya ining picture atchu keng cellphone ku eme akit agad. HOT ya pamo!

One mochachinno, coming up! Coffee, lots of cream, a little bit sugar and some Milo. Aku danum mapali mu chaka metung bag ning Lipton. Maka 3 cups naku kanita piulit-ulit kemu hehehe.

i love you

Just want to say: Kaluguran daka nung nanu ka at ninu ika.... goodnight....

missed call, missed you

Around 5:38 na ning afternoon, biglang minuran. Ali malakas pero ali murin ambun. Aniang dimdam ku ita ika minuna linub keng utak ku. Wer naka kaya, pota mabasa ka. Tnxt daka at panayang sagut kasu bigla nakung inutus mako keng luwal para saling banana. Kabalik ku atin kang missed call. Hay.....!!!, 45 minutes dakang panayan tapus a miss kemu call mu.... sorry dear... guilty ku. promise bawi ku keng susunud....

Exactly 15 days now since last time dakang ikit... A miss ke ing masanting mung lupa... ing gagawan ku pibalik balik kula reng picture mu, keng cell ku at pc.... habang lalawen daka kareng picture, ating kung background music.... here are the songs:

You and Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

The Earth, the Sun, the Rain
When I was lost
I could not see
All the beauty and wonder
There'd been around me
I was alone
Dreaming of you
Oh I could not imagine
This dream coming true

So much joy now
And all that you touched
You make me feel
Everything's so much

Chorus:
I will love you for the
earth at my feet
I will love you for
the sun in the sky
I will love you for
the falling rain,
I will love you for
the heart that could
break,
I will love you for the
dreams that we share,
I will love you for
the falling rain.

Facing the wind,
Tears from my eyes,
Baby where have you been,
When I was hoping,
Was waiting for you,
To pull back the door,
To take me by the hand,
And lead me through.

This whole world was,
A stranger to me,
Now you have opened,
My heart to everything.

Speed of light

Thanks God miras ku site na malangi! Halus 5:30 naku meko kekami. Inayus kepa PC ku tapus magexercise in between ot bigla namung melulam. Pendalas kung magmanehu hehehe. Karas ku kilub site mabasa ing dalan evident ing masikang urang binagsak.

Akalingwan kupang mendalang panyu. Magtissue nakumu kanini.

Kadatang ku site mga past 6 na. Kayari kung megCR awsan daka kaya lang eme sagutan. Chu kumu canteen. Uling mekapilan nakung ring eme sagutan, megblog nakumu kareng PC keni.

Unable to reach you

I tried calling you today after I arrived from work pero you are not answering your phone. I tried like four times pero still no answer.

Anyways, nandin tinry keng iniscan PC ku pero ala kung akit virus or spyware. Tapus gewa ku megselective start up ku. Atin kung dinisable adwang program na suspicious uyta meayus ne. Keng off kunala ayusan deta. Ngeni stable ne PC ku. Makapagporn naku este makapagdownload naku.

By the way, please refrain from copy and pasting articles. You can site or quote some pero ali mula ngan copy. Tapus when choosing pictures, choose detang alang copyright like detang kalupa nitang condom. Detang ating watermark, iwasan mo deta.

Uyta, mengan ne kanu Patty penayan ke pamo. Mangan kupa. Eku magreply keng text mu kasi bigla kung megmood swing. Wait danaka chat later..

Miracle of Friendship

The Miracle of Friendship. There's a "Miracle called FRIENDSHIP" That dwells within the HEART and you don't know how It happens or when it gets its start... But the happiness it brings you Always gives a special LIFT, and you realize that FRIENDSHIP... Is GOD'S most precious GIFT!

Masaya ku at we are friends no matter what...melungkut ku last night when you told me I was asking too much... I am sorry my dear it wasn't meant that way. Masaya kung masaya aniang sinabi mula deta... KISS HUG LOVE When I ask you how about bukas...ing LOVE pinili keng interpret as LOVE for a best friend kasi ita itamu diba... We are close friends... Aminan ku kaluguran daka more than friend but it does not mean I will ask you to do the same. When I realize that I have fallen for you after knowing your situation balu ku na keng pusu ku na atin kang bage na ali a bie kaku... aku na ing pinaka masaya, pinaka swerti at pinaka proud nung datang ing time ibie mu ita kaku, pero nung ali... tanggapan ku naman makanta talaga ing life...ating para keka ating ali para keka... pero ali ibig sabian na nita I will love you LESS... masaya ku keng friendship ta ngeni... we are getting to know each other, our weakness, our strength our passion, our views, our dreams... nanu man mangyari keng hinaharap only time will tell and only God knows... Troy, lets celebrate life for what we are right now... the miracle of FRIENDSHIP

btw, sensya na last night eku balu if mad ka or inis ka... wait danaka mu...

Hakuna Matata

Worry is negative visualization. That's what authors Michael Gelb and Tony Buzan point out in Lessons from the Art of Juggling.

It's true: Worry is a focus on fear, which leads to tension, anxiety, anger, and exhaustion.

Here are ten tips to help you stop worrying:

• A positive attitude works wonders and prevents us from falling into the dark pit of worry and obsession. Stay focused on what's going right in your life.

• Dale Carnegie offers some classic advice in How to Stop Worrying and Start Living. First, identify the worst-case scenario. Accept it. Then, set out to improve upon it. Meanwhile, ask yourself, "Just how likely is this worst-case scenario?"

• Recording your worries in written form can help you channel nervous energy and pinpoint the real subject of your anxiety. Then you can work to solve those problems rationally and objectively.

• Mike Brescia has a good one for dissolving worry and anxiety here. This audiotape is not self-hypnotizing or subliminal. You'll hear every message, but these messages are subtle and, for many people, effective.

• And your hard-earned energy to obsess over the little things in life, nor about issues, events, and people over which you have no control. Repeat this fact to yourself, over and over if necessary.

• It's important to plan well, and to prepare for the future. A daily checklist can help you break up larger tasks into more realistic nuggets. After you make your daily to-do list, concern yourself only with the issues at hand. Focus on making the most of the present moment.

• Each time you find yourself worrying about some future event, remind yourself that you are capable of handling the problem when it arises. Develop a sense of trust in yourself to handle anything that comes your way. The best way to develop this trust is to charge your "confidence battery." Reflect on all of your successes...the times you succeeded in something on the fly. Spend less time worrying about what could happen with thoughts of what did happen-and how well you handled it.

• A support system is vital, but resist the temptation to exaggerate things when talking to your friends. Remind yourself that the level of stress you experience is directly related to the way you internalize it.

• George Bernard Shaw said, "The secret of being miserable is to have the leisure to bother about whether you are happy or not." If you're obsessing over something you know is silly, distract yourself. Start a new project. Take the kids out for ice cream. Call your mom.

• Your religious faith can go a long way in breaking the worry habit by helping you give those anxieties to a force greater than yourself.

It's important to recognize that everyone struggles with worry at some point. Talk with your friends and family about possible new ways you could handle these jittery sitations.

I know its something I need to work on... kaya lets sing this song:

Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!